Thursday----my life as a lie.......

I am 61 years old and have done little since I have stopped teaching.The most note worthy thing in my life has been waiting.If I am good enough mabe dadd will love maybe mother would hug me.I remembe at age 5-7 when mother told me her life was fine untill i cam along..be a big boy Don't cry...We'll get some ice cream what did I do to be hurt so much.....I try harder if you will love me!!Please dont' Yell...I sorry for livivng I will destroy me as quick as I can......just don't yelllllllllll