A cold night -Christmas

Christmas time hard time for me.I was given switches by a uncaring step-father and ever since then I have had a hard time with the season.I like the idea of people have fun and getting together.In my hearth the dark of winter come in I can not sleep because of the night maries that I have.They -the dreams usually focus of school children and being later for an appointment.A lone ++++++I think we are all alone...just one heart-beat/keystroke from the universe...Gifts i wish to give my children..Peace of mind and good health.......I wis they could feel the love tht I have and need from them...dan