Nov.5,2007

just want to scream,HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 63 I hear the clock ticking I just want to not be in pain.I have a safe have in U-Tube.I can walk the video trail for a long tine I Need to be in school learning some thing new...What ? I want a job where people come for my advice and share secrets.......
I also wish I didn't lie I can not tell reality from fantasy..
Things I wish mother would have told me go to church and work hard.I miss the struggle of the sirvial on a daily bases.
I want to meet other women///I want to touch other women....will my dead self matter.I would hurt my wife.... so whats new??? The dread things is no one ever reads this mess...